this is a post about doubt.
it's inevitable, i guess. doubting yourself, your place, your purpose.
it doesn't happen to me that often, but i'm currently sitting smack in the middle of a season of self doubt. all summer, i've been thinking what the heck am i doing? logically, I know the answer, and logically, it makes sense. I am going to school, so that I can graduate sooner, get a real, fun job, and make real, fun money. I know that it was absolutely the right decision to stay in Auburn and do school this summer, but I think I've fallen into a trap.
the prevailing mindset in college is that you work hard (and maybe play hard) during fall and spring, and then during the summer, you go off on some wonderful adventure, whether it be camp or internships or mission trips. I have friends literally all over the world this summer, doing great things and bringing massive glory to God.
and meanwhile... I'm in class?
I feel like I'm not doing enough. like I'm not making a difference.
In some ways, I have a lot of self confidence. Like, if you ask me a question about sports, I'm pretty confident I can answer it. I'm confident in the ability God has given me to do certain things, like love on children or be creative. However, I am much, much less confident in other areas. Like now.
I'm not so sure what I'm supposed to be doing in this season of my life. I sort of feel like I'm wasting time, and that's not a good feeling.
Over and over, I'm telling myself I am enough. But actually, I'm not enough. God is enough. His grace is enough. I know that He can and will lead me, show me, and teach me what this season means in my life.
I'm so thankful that even when my earthly cup feels empty, God still floods my heart.
and that is why I am enough.
it's inevitable, i guess. doubting yourself, your place, your purpose.
it doesn't happen to me that often, but i'm currently sitting smack in the middle of a season of self doubt. all summer, i've been thinking what the heck am i doing? logically, I know the answer, and logically, it makes sense. I am going to school, so that I can graduate sooner, get a real, fun job, and make real, fun money. I know that it was absolutely the right decision to stay in Auburn and do school this summer, but I think I've fallen into a trap.
the prevailing mindset in college is that you work hard (and maybe play hard) during fall and spring, and then during the summer, you go off on some wonderful adventure, whether it be camp or internships or mission trips. I have friends literally all over the world this summer, doing great things and bringing massive glory to God.
and meanwhile... I'm in class?
I feel like I'm not doing enough. like I'm not making a difference.
In some ways, I have a lot of self confidence. Like, if you ask me a question about sports, I'm pretty confident I can answer it. I'm confident in the ability God has given me to do certain things, like love on children or be creative. However, I am much, much less confident in other areas. Like now.
I'm not so sure what I'm supposed to be doing in this season of my life. I sort of feel like I'm wasting time, and that's not a good feeling.
Over and over, I'm telling myself I am enough. But actually, I'm not enough. God is enough. His grace is enough. I know that He can and will lead me, show me, and teach me what this season means in my life.
I'm so thankful that even when my earthly cup feels empty, God still floods my heart.
and that is why I am enough.